silence on brokeback

i meant to write something about brokeback mountain. i haven't brought it over me yesterday, after i watched the movie. i still don't know what i mean to write. it's the kind of movie that should be watched and felt, not talked about. it left a weird feeling of deep loss and utter rage, am still shifting between the two. it just stroke a chord with the little don quijote in me. unfortunately for him and for me, my don quijote is fully aware that the dragons he battles are just windmills. makes the task even harder. i know i can't change the world, though i sometimes still believe it. and this particular issue is sometyhing i feel very strongly about. i hate to call it gay rights, that's just an overused phrase. it's so much more than that. it was such a hard fought war to make people aware that love crosses boundaries of states, of languages, cultures, of space and time. and they seem even more reluctant to the idea that love crosses boundaries of gender, or that it cares not for artificial boundaries of a questionable morality. the tagline says it all. 'love is a force of nature'.
i hadn't expected less of the movie than to strike that chord that moves me and get me in a rage. yet all i can do to scream out against injustice, is just utter a silent cry in rhymes. it's my way of getting out the feelings that have stirred. it's something i needed to write, to get it out of my system. apart from that, i am afraid there's little i can do. as placebo put it "hold your breath and count to ten, and fall apart and start again"
or even better. let ennis say it. "if you can't fix it you've got to stand it."

silence on brokeback

there is silence on brokeback.

the river flows its steady path.
green bursts in winter's aftermath.
there's a rustle of life that never leaves.
the wind whispers as though it grieves.

and yet, there is silence on brokeback.

there is bleating from thousands of sheep.
there's coyotes' howls interrupting sleep.
the one thing that isn't, is entwined laughter.
so from now on until ever after

there will always be silence on brokeback.